Wasting my time wondering what if

I’m not certain about much of my choices I have made in my life or how they have affected and will continue to affect my life,. like not going to college after high school and before kids, So I could have a career and help my little family,. or relationships including friends, and choices I have made pertaining to those.
What I am certain about in my life is that no matter the choices I have made, they lead me here, to the husband I have & the sweet little minions we have brought into this world. the love that I have for them as they have for me and my amazing family that I have been born into & the amazing family I have married into! Each day I am slowly opening up to learning about myself and not being as shy. A lot of things aren’t certain in this life, friends for one they come in and out of our lives some stay some move on some you keep in touch with some you are regrettably wondering if some of your life choices have made it to where you are barely holding on to those relationships as they each day are slipping away. I’m happy with my life as is, my problem is what career and how to get there to better our lives. some things I’m also for sure of is I have a new-found love of lipstick, and iced coffee and when I drink it, that it will give me energy. other than those things, there is a lot left a mystery & I am needing to let go & stop wasting my time wondering what if!